I’m going to take you back in time a little. I was bullied relentlessly at school.
And the only thing that I felt that I could do, was run.
It just so happened, I was a fast runner, not the fastest, but pretty damn fast. Fast enough that the local athletics club would have me as their No.1 to run the 100, 200, 400 and 800 meters (and win nearly all of them, except the 800 where I was plant) for my age group.
In the summer, I came third in a festival race, I got pushed (deliberately) to the longer edge of the track, to be honest I didn’t really want to be in the race, but when I got tripped and fell flat on my face, I got back up and ran like f*cking wild-fire. I came third in something that should have been an easy, breezy 1st. I didn’t care though, I “showed” them. I had proved myself.
At primary school…
We were being time-trialed for inter-school mini-Olympics. As I ran the track, I was deliberately tripped, pushed and shoved (again), but still made good time, but wasn’t picked for the team. My Mum made a complaint to the school, so they made some adjustments and I eventually was given a B team place. I won a silver medal for 200 m relay. There’s no way we would have won a 2nd place without me, my time was the fastest. Another F. You. I am worthy of this.
In the athletics club…
At 14, I ran against 16-year-old girls because our sprinter who was in that age bracket couldn’t run. I beat them all in the 200 meters. I ran with bare feet as I didn’t have spikes (running shoes). I didn’t have a team kit. I was a true underdog.
And I won.
At high school…
At 15, I broke the high school record for the 100 meter sprint. I was in the B team. Not the A team, nope, I was never picked for the fast teams, but I BEAT THE F*CKING RECORD and not only did I beat it, it stayed that way for a few years longer (the P.E teacher let me know this years later).
It wasn’t put on any boards. It wasn’t declared anywhere because of who I was. Where I came from. I wasn’t one of the kids whose parents were involved in committees and clubs. Nope, I came from a family who was known for having weekend-long parties, and lock-ins at my parents pub. And f*ck knows what else the small-town would say about my parents.
I wasn’t good enough to be recognised for my efforts.
I was even told by one of my teachers that I’d end up pregnant at 16 and on benefits.
(Funny I never wanted kids after that, huh?)
I’ll never forget that day when I won that race.
I’ll never forget how I felt.
There was no-one there to cheer me.
There was no-one there to congratulate me.
I would sit on the bus on the way home alone.
I would get in the house (there would be no-one there), but I’d want to tell everyone I won.
There was no-one to cheer me.
There was no-one to celebrate with me.
I could only celebrate myself, though I didn’t know how.
Shining wasn’t an option.
YOUR LIFE CAN FEEL LIKE A RACE
Like a constant competition.
You’re running a race and the whole time, you feel like you’re in competition with everyone else on the track, but the thing is, you know you are going to win this, you know in your soul that you will cross that finish line and look back and you’ll still be waiting for the rest to catch you.
Because the only person you were racing, was you.
THE ONLY PERSON TO BE IN COMPETITION WITH IS YOU
Each and every time we have a new goal, plan or desire we can’t get there from where we are right now.
We have to train.
We have to create a new identity of self.
We have to embody this, each and every day (even when it hurts) until it takes.
YOU DO WHAT IT TAKES UNTIL IT TAKES
Because if you are listening to your Soul and your Calling and all those nudges, I can guarantee your Soul is taking you places. Even if it’s dragging you along.
You can’t ever get it wrong.
You are never going to fail.
You are only going to Become yourself.
You are only going to step into a greater version of who you were always meant to become.
BUSINESS CAN BE SIMPLE
The only thing that’s hard is pushing yourself and stretching yourself out of your comfort zone so that you can win (in your way, for you, not to prove yourself, you’ve done that already).
Win for yourself.
Create that new identity.
Don’t be ashamed of who you are and what you desire.
AND NEVER BE AFRAID OF WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF YOU
Geezo, if I was still worried about what folks thought of me, I’d be sitting in a dark room in Scotland and wouldn’t come out.
I just did that.
And I did it because I needed to remember.
WHAT MADE ME TICK
What was it that made me RUN LIKE WILD FIRE and go as fast as I could because I wanted to win, because I wanted to BE somebody?
I wanted Recognition.
I longed for Belonging.
I desperately ‘needed’ Security.
I didn’t want to be a loser.
I was over feeling lost, outcast, on the outside looking in. I wanted to feel SIGNIFICANT.
I wanted to BE somebody.
Wow, just wow.
Significance. It’s what everyone wants. Whether we believe it or not.
AND KNOW I KNOW THIS, I CAN ALSO CLAIM:
That I’m enough Being who I am
That I’m actually pretty freaking awesome
That I get to CHOOSE daily what I want in my life
AND I’VE CREATED A PRETTY AMAZING LIFE
I live in hotels
I travel the world
I have clients and friends all over the world
THIS IS MY CHOICE
And I want you to know this:
You can have it all
You just have to choose
AND IN 21 DAYS…
I’ll show you exactly what it takes to make YOUR life tick the way YOU want it to
Are you willing?
Do you want to Be, Do, Have ALL of the stuff you dream of?
If it’s a HELL YES then come along for a wild ride.
or over there to your right >>>>
You’re going to get out of your own way.
You’re going to find that FIRE you once had (and how to activate it daily)
You’ll reconnect to your Highest Vision and start Creating from a place of Trust
You’ll learn how to listen closely to what your Soul really desires
Did I say you’ll get out of your own way?
You’ll learn how to SHOW Up everyday
You’ll build unwavering Confidence in Who You Are
You’ll start to attract your Clients to you who love you
You’ll be inspired and you’ll know how to tune into YOUR inspiration daily
This is not a challenge, a sprint or a marathon.
It’s embodiment of daily practices to ACTIVATE the MAGIC in you so that you SHOW UP and SHINE as the Divine Being you are.
And you’ll remember your worthiness.
You’ll remember that you Unique, Brilliant and Special.
It’s time to stop doubting yourself beautiful.
It’s time to step into your truth, get paid to be you and bring your brilliance to the world.
I’ll see you on the inside soon.
Love Susan xx